a reassurance

for you dear, i would have fallen from a cliff
like the card that fell from my hand to yours
with no tether tied to keep me from dashing on the rocks
but you already had a previous entanglement(s) that
try as i might, i couldn't manage to untie
even when i tried using a saw, the kind from nightmares
because it was hard as rock and i'm surprised that it wasn't
and you blinded me and i couldn't see past the speckles
of white and pink and green and blue because you were
so bright and light and light and light and light
but then it came to be that there was an eclipse
that i had been waiting for, praying for
(thought to whom, i've yet to find out)
and finally it came to block the rays you sent
and i saw better in that darkness than i could ever
in your shining glow because then i saw that really
you only pressed the button and really
your words can only be described as convoluted
and really i was always better than that
unless really this is just a way for me to
convince myself
again